Down and out in Rotterdam

Ideas, meaning and a mind in motion

Category: Review

  • Buikgriep

    Na een lichte buikgriep, of was het een verdomde voedselinfectie? Ik had zaterdag buiten de deur gegeten, ben ik weer op de been. Dinsdagen werk ik halve dagen en ga ik vaak naar de stad. Ik heb al twee dagen nauwelijks iets voedzaams gegeten dus ik nam de metro. Waarom is roken op de terrassen nog steeds niet verboden? Ik zit bij de Coffee Company en ik zit aan de lattè met havermelk. Ik snap dat de hipsters die er werken ook roken, want dat blijft hip, gek genoeg, want zuivel is wel echt not done, dat kan je dus niet meer maken anno 2022, maar iemand kanker geven op een terras met je stinksigaret dat is nog niet uit de mode. Ik voel me dus iets beter. Fysiek zwak zijn maakt dat je ook geen energie hebt om te piekeren.

    Dan besef je ineens weer hoe kwetsbaar je als mens bent als je een virus te pakken hebt en je lijf er van van slag is. Als je voeding nodig hebt voor energie, maar niks binnen kunt houden. Dan sterf je dus gewoon in het wild. Gelukkig leef ik niet in het wild en kon ik soep van mijn moeder krijgen en wat bouillon.

    Ik ben bezig met lezen in ‘Island’ van Aldous Huxley, zijn laatste werk (1962). Na het herlezen van zijn ‘Brave New World’ en mijn algehele dystopische stemming dacht ik laat ik nog wat doorpakken uit zijn Ouvre. Had ik dat maar niet gedaan. Hij schrijft gelukkig geen dikke boeken en dat spreekt voor een schrijver – als het goed is kan het ook in weinig woorden – maar hij is gewoon geen goede roman schrijver. Huxley is van de ideeën en essays, in ‘Brave New World’ kwam dat goed samen (ook dat leest niet echt lekker), maar Island is dodelijk saai.

  • A Serious Man

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    I felt like writing about the Coen Brother’s ‘A serious man’. I think it is perhaps their best movie yet and I like it especially because of its Jewish setting and story-line. More important it is a profoundly philosophical and existential movie which though labeled a comedy, could just as easily have been labeled a tragedy. It’s a movie that can make you laugh out loud but is just as likely to make you sob and binge on alcohol, all depending on the mood you’re in while watching it. It’s a real tragicomedy, like life itself.

    The movie opens with a quote from Rashi:

    Receive with simplicity everything that happens to you.

    The main character Larry Gopnik gets introduced in the movie while trying to explain the math behind Schrödingers Paradox on a large chalkboard. Shortly after the professor gets a visit from Korean exchange student Clive, who complains about failing his midterm exams.

    “Uh, Dr. Gopnik, I believe the results of Physics Mid-Term were unjust.
     “Uh-huh, how so?”
     “I received an unsatisfactory grade. In fact: F, the failing
    grade.”

    “Uh, yes. You failed the mid-term. That’s accurate.”
    “Yes, but this is not just. I was unaware to be examined on
    the mathematics.”

    “Well-you can’t do physics without mathematics, really, can you.”
    “If I receive failing grade I lose my scholarship, and feel
    shame. I understand the physics. I understand the dead cat.”

    “You understand the dead cat?”

    “But… you… you can’t really understand the physics
    without understanding the math. The math tells how it
    really works. That’s the real thing; the stories I give you in
    class are just illustrative; they’re like, fables, say, to help
    give you a picture. An imperfect model. I mean-even I
    don’t understand the dead cat. The math is how it really
    works.”

    This dialogue is crucial for understanding the movie. Larry Gopnik isn’t certain at all and admits he doesn’t really understand the dead cat. He only knows the math. It’s a funny scene, but important in that it offers insight into the mindset of the main character.

    Soon Larry discovers Clive tries to bribe him into passing his midterm when he finds an envelope with dollar bills on his desk. At first this causes outrage with Larry, but as further unfortunate events unfold in the movie he starts to seriously consider passing Clive.

    As the movie progresses, Larry experiences ever more setbacks and soon imagines himself like the biblical character Job, and while perhaps initially laughing at him, you honestly start to feel sorry for Larry. At least I did. But the true tragedy of ‘A Serious Man’ is how Larry deals with his setbacks. His whole life is seemingly falling apart and think as he might as a physicist, he finds no sense behind it. And so he acts like a deer caught in the headlights, he freezes.

    In another scene we witness a dream Larry is dreaming. He dreams that he is in front of his class writing out the math behind the ‘uncertainty principle’. He has written an enormous equation covering the whole of the chalkboard.

    . and that means… so that… from which we derive…
    and also.. which lets us… and…

    Okay?
    The Uncertainty Principle. It proves we can’t ever
    really know… what’s going on.
    So it shouldn’t bother you. Not being able to figure
    anything out. Although you will be responsible for this on
    the mid-term

    His dream tries to speak to him, but he ignores his dream. In a quest for answers Larry visits three consecutive rabbi’s for advice. What should he do, why are all these setbacks coming at once and why him?  We’ve all asked these questions. Well, most Jews certainly did. Like I said, it’s a very Jewish movie.

    Does he find an answer with the Rabbi’s? Does he take the bribe from Clive at the end of the movie?

    Here’s the lesson I took from the movie:

    In life, you can choose to be good and do good deeds, but there is no reward, or you can choose to be bad and you might get away without punishment. We can live careful and responsible lives making minor mistakes, but one minor mistake can end up being of great consequences and we all make mistakes. Just as easily we can choose to live life dangerously and make all the mistakes in the book, and die without regrets in old age.

    Some of us (blessed are the ignorant…) look for a meaning to our misery, especially if we feel we don’t deserve it, but no matter how hard we try we will never get the answers and die clueless. All we can hope for is that our life was somehow meaningful and rewarding, but there are no guarantees. No guarantees. At all. That’s the scary part. Yet even if life is hard on you, you can still choose to do good regardless, you can always choose for good.

    And Rashi was probably right; ‘receive everything that happens to you with simplicity’. Easier said than done. Good luck to all of us.

    The serious man is in all of us. I’ve felt like him a lot. In fact, my advice; don’t watch this movie when you’re down. A Serious man painfully illustrates the feelings of impotence we can encounter in our day to day struggle with life.

  • All Quiet on the Western Front

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    Just a few days ago I was waiting at the trainstation for a train to arrive. When I looked down on the tracks I noticed a fat rat’s upper half, the rat was cut in half by the passing of a previous train. I suddenly experienced a flashback, and there I was, down in the trenches, looking at bodies the way Paul described them, this time the result of the surprisingly devastating force of an artillery barrage. I remembered the rats also, grown fat by the rotting bodies lying in no-mans land. It’s impossible to have a flashback of something you havent experienced. Still, the images felt real. So was the loneliness and the fear when I joined him at that cold dark night stuck in no-mans land, playing for dead, hoping his buddies will be in time to save him, afraid to raise his head, holding tight to dear earth, hoping to survive another day. This sums up the force of ‘All Quiet on the Western Front’. I wasn’t there, all I saw was a glimpse of the tragedy, but it was enough for me to be very glad I could end it all by closing the book.